Finally,

Passport and Visa dah settle, ticket dah booked,

Saturday, 8th September 2012

Jakarta - Guangzhou

8.35 AM

Bismillah..

Shaoguan University,

1st year: Prep Mandarin,

2nd year: Degree - Business/ Management.

Cuak, Sedih, Excited, semua jadi satu. Hm. Culture shock dia mesti dahsyat gila kalau nak compare dengan malaysia dulu. 

Eid Mubarak before.

I'm currently waiting for 8th September. 

I don't know the result yet but I'm absolutely sure that Allah gives me the best, I did my ikhtiar and now is the time to tawakkal

am I that indecisive ?

BI dah berterabuh, ni tengah usaha nak naikkan balik la. I know, my english's suck lol. 

am I that indecisive, or is it normal for a person to change her thought continuously?  I'm confuse almost in every single thing in my life. and now it's becoming terrible because I need to decide something big for my life. and of course I'm indecisive haha. 

at first I was thinking like, maybe maths or accounting is the best for me. they seems like a game for me, not a serious thing or full of pressure things like what people normally think. but when I thought of it once again, I think they're boring haha. (ok very labil). no, I mean, why the hell in this earth I should take a really non-living thing as a major? I mean, maths n account are just about number. (haha narrow minded lah kan). maybe studying something correlate with people is better, maybe. 

 my parents said that I'm very rebel (lol gila). I like to argue people's opinion (that's what they say lah, but I think it's quite true haha). So they suggest me to take law. I was interested at first, because yeah, my parents is true. Debating is really my talent, even in debate club I couldn't speak up and that was very loser of me, but I love to debate haha. But then again, when I saw the syllabus, studying about rules, law, and whatsoever, oh my god that's what I really hate! I hate to memorize what case, where, when, how, even the law itself. Pancasila pun aku tak suka nak hafal ok! Then I give up lol. 

then I think like, psychology is kind of good and great to be studied. to know and understand people's behavior is just great, right? that's what I think la. Then, to be able to cheer someone's up when he/she's down is awesome for me. but when I saw the syllabus, it's boring for me lol. Ok, I don't know why, but it just seems so boring. then friends of mine also suggest me not to take psychology. I don't know why, maybe the career prospect isn't too good. 

And the last thing in my head for now is to take business major, because as a first child of my lovely dad, it's like a big responsibility for me to take over his business right? And my father's is related with finance management. It seems cool for me. Yeah, of course I know a little about this field lah, as my father's job is a finance counselor. But I still don't know whether I'll like it or not hahaha. 

 Yeah, I'm still thinking about everything lalala. It's still possible for me to take maths, account, law, psychology, or business. Maybe some day I'll come out with my own decision, I do hope. 

p/s: it's not about what course to take only, but also where to study, which university, and other things. lol.

Dah Alumni?

Semalam paper last. PQS. Sekolah dah abes dah. Dan dah jadi ALUMNI!

Ok senernye tak kisah pun, jadi alumni ke ape. Takde feeling sangat lah.. Maklum, baru dua tahun sekolah sini.

Walaupun happy sebab dah tak payah nak berhadapan ngan SPM, peraturan sekolah, kerja rumah, etc, tapi rupanya habis SPM ni seram.

"Bukan dah habis sekolah, tapi hidup baru bermula" (Pakcik Kahar)

Hm.

Takut. Cuak.

Sendiri Pilih, Sendiri Tanggung

Rasanya memang patut berhenti mengeluh atas segala sesuatu yang terjadi terhadap apa yang telah jadi pilihanKU.

contohnya.
Dah amek addmaths. Kenalah reda dengan segala bendanya. project work yang tak tau apa tujuannya, soalan yang gila belambak, yang mencabar, susah nak dapat A+, etc. Sebab apa. Sebab yang pilih untuk amek addmaths ialah diri sendiri. Dah sendiri punya pilihan, sendiri punya consequences lah.

Dah amek PA. Dengan segala cabarannya. Kerja kursus lah. Kelas yang macam tanak lagi lama an. 4 Masa. Dengan tak fahamnya lah. Hafal format ni, format tu lah.
Pastu nak mengeluh. Padahal sapa yang dulu pegi amek kos PA? Diri sendiri. Sapa yang sekarang mengeluh? Diri sendiri -,-

Dah pilih nak sekolah kat Malaysia. Kenalah siap sedia dengan segala cabarannya. Yang kadang kita tak suka, kadang kita menyampah. Pastu nak banding-bandingkan, sekolah sini vs. sekolah sana. Kalau sekolah sana mesti nanti lulus terus degree. Kat sini, SPM tu buat apa? Sekolah sana, mesti boleh je apply mana mana biasiswa kerajaan. Kat sini, sapa nak bagi biasiswa??

Memang senernya tak patut nak kutuk langsung an. Memang tak patut nak menyesali atau semacamnya. Langsung tak patut. SENDIRI PILIH, SENDIRI TANGGUNG LAH. Dulu dah pilih sini, kenalah membayangkan dan merancang segala kelemahan, dugaan dan cabaran yang mungkin akan dihadapi.

Wallahua'lam

SPM itu penting?

Yup. Inilah aku. sementara semua orang tengah sibuk nak mantapkan segala benda yang berkaitan dengan SPM, aku sibuk dengan soalan yang sama.
Abaikan.

Trial 5hb September. Hebat kan. Aku memang tak boleh nak target tinggi2 lah. Memang tanak target tinggi2.

Addmaths dah takleh nak dapat A+ lagi dah. Ntahla apa jadi an. *Sorry Dalila*.
PROJECT WORK BARU HANTAR PAGI TADI. LOL.
PA pun apa bezanya. DAHLA GPK PA WHOOP. Nasib baik laa, kerja kursus f4-f5 takdela teruk mana. Tertolong sikit nak kejar lagi 80 tu.
Maths, asik tercareless. Macam nak bunuh diri pun ada kalau dah macam tu.
PQS pun dah entah pape jer.

padahal 4 tu je yang aku target A+. Tapi kalau macam ni, memang la tak kan dapat A+ langsung dalam apa-apa subjek. Pasrah jelah. Tak dapat 11G sudah lah.

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Hidup dah makin complicated. Macam-macam perangai manusia pun dah mula wujud dah.

Hebat lah konon. Tapi sebenernya merosakkan maruah diri sendiri.

Hebat lah konon. Tapi sebenernya justeru membahayakan diri sendiri.

Hebat lah konon. Tapi sebenernya malah menjauhkan diri dari reda manusia. Reda Allah? Hanya ALLAH yang tahu.

Padahal dalam usaha mencapai kejayaan mestilah perlu reda manusia an. Kalau kita suka sakitkan hati manusia lain, cane nak dapat reda mereka?

Kita pun perlu gak, reda ALLAH. Memang tulah yang paling utama. Tapi kalau kita asik buat benda yang Allah tak suka, cane nak dapat reda-Nya?

Tak salah an kalau memang nak berjaya tu, fokuslah untuk berjaya. Tak salah an kalau takyah fikir pasal benda2 merapu dan tak berfaedah. Tak salah an kalau jaga perangai sikiiit je.

Orang lain yang tengok pun suka, Allah pun reda.


-Aku memang tak boleh nak cakap apa-apa. Nak cakap, bukan orang dengar pun. Memang hati ni diam jer. Yer, imanku memang tahap paling lemah kan. HATI JE BOLEH MEMBERONTAK. Sedangkan lisan dan tangan diam tak berdaya.-

Nak buat macam mana.



*Sorry entry ni macam agak kasar lah kan. Sorry.

Syahru Ramadhan

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Hi everyone! Tak sangka, dah masuk Ramadhan dah. Ramadhan ke berapa ntah, jauh dari family. Ke-3 kott.

Alhamdulillah, masih diberi kesempatan untuk menikmati Ramadhan tahun ini. Semoga menjadi Ramadhan yang terbaik.

Sehubungan dengan itu (Ayat BM SPM), mohon maafkan segala salah silap saya.

*Ayat pembuka kat atas tu takde kena mengena dengan isi post ni. Harap maklum.